"Baat karni mujhe mushkil kabhi aisi tou na thi"

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I feel so numb at the moment. Speechless, probably would be the right word to describe the state I am in. I feel as if the moment I utter a word, something disastrous would happen. Not to anybody else. But to me. I try to get things out of my head, but I simply cannot. Everything that is happening around is too much to bear. I want to write and speak about so many things but I cannot. But I will, inshaAllah. I know that I will, as soon as this 'tongue-tied' phase of mine gets over. I do not want it to be an outpouring anymore. I want it to come in a serene manner. Not like the waves in a tempestuous sea, but like ripples that appear on the surface of the water when a small pebble is thrown in to it. But ripples go away too quickly... And so do the tempestuous waves. So it probably has to come like a river that flows endlessly...

Whoever said it, said it so beautifully:

"Baat karni mujhe mushkil kabhi aisi tou na thi
Jaisi abb hai teri mehfil kabhi aisi tou na thi'"

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Anonymous said…
"So it probably has to come like a river that flows endlessly..."

You always talk sense mashAllah.

The couplet is of Bahadur Shah Zafar by the way!
12:51 AM
Naeema Akram-Jehanzeb said…
Oh jazakillahu khaira! I was frantically looking for the poet's name... :)
12:55 AM
Anonymous said…
No problem
1:38 AM
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