musaafir-e dasht

SOURCE So today I am writing my blog at 8.15 am! Wow! Now, such a relaxed state of mind is definitely a result of something. Yes, I am done with exams. ALHAMDULILLAH! The night before the last seemed like a never-ending one. While gulping down coffee and biscuits at short intervals (and also feeling guilty for doing so! Sigh), I felt my anxiety levels being pushed to the limits! At one moment, I just had to STOP writing (typing, that is) and get myself on the jaae-namaaz . Could hardly take it any longer. After spending almost a good half an hour there, I resumed work. Pretty calm this time. So very calm that after listening to the recording of the interview, on which my assignment was to be based, for the one last time, I was badly yawning at around 4.30 am. "I think I should go to sleep," told myself. Further reassured myself that with such a tired state of mind I would take far more time than required to complete the work that I could otherwise do in just two hours. Even ...

I had my second last exam today. Couldn't do very well. At least that is how I would appraise my performance. It was one of those subjects in which I thought I would be able to do well. But Allah SWT has His ways of showing us various signs of His! Two days back I fell ill and was almost unable to revise anything at all. Consequently I had to sit for the exam with almost no revision at all. All that I remembered and tried to recollect during the exam was from my previous readings of various texts that were a part of this course ... So today's exam was not really that good an experience as I had expected it to be. And today I also realised, yet again, how helpless a human being is before the Divine Will and plans. The challenge is not to whine over things that bring a sense of displeasure to us but to consider them from Allah SWT and despite feeling down, still being able to put one's trust in Him and Him alone. hasbiyallah! P.S. This post is a reassurance to myself!

I read about the following inspirational encounter between Mawlana Madni and Mawlana Ilyaas (rahimahumullah) in today's newspaper . It is so heartening to read about such incidents which reflect such purity of muhabbah  - love for Love's sake! subhaanAllah, indeed! SOURCE